Hello! Its been far too long since Rachael was around so ive made amends this week…..
A while ago,well October last year, i meet the lovely Melissa who runs a small business offering makeovers and photos here in Melbourne. (Metamorphosis). For a few reasons i won’t go into here, i was under the impression that she had forgotten my photos or was too busy to consider them. ( Hey… that’s low self esteem for you). Anyway, ive been very down recently and figured my femininity was being neglected. I contacted Melissa to see what was happening. Melissa had in fact already sent them, but was happy to resend. I got these photos 2 days ago and I’m quite stunned…….. She’s an artist and perfectionist for sure.
So having seen these in the same week i needed to travel for work, I figured some time for myself might be just what i need.
Last night i practised with some new eyeliner and usual makeup and had fun trying on different outfits. The new wig is a disappointment sadly, much darker than I expected and too harsh for me to carry off.
Real shame as its actually quite good quality. Might try dying it as its human hair…..
This morning i woke up before 6am but thought that as im actually working (albeit via laptop and mobile) that i should dress for the city.
I had a few personal challenges that i keep avoiding through anxiety, but with confidence in my look this morning i headed to my car and went to get some breakfast. Now i know fast food wraps and coffee from a drive through aren’t healthy, but i didn’t have the courage 1st thing for a supermarket shop. Next i figured i should get some cash out for the day and had a quiet walk to the atm. No one around yet but good to walk and feel the sensations.
Next i decided to start the drive back to Melbourne. This was a bigger deal than it sounds as by doing this i removed the option of going back to the hotel and going boy again. It also meant i needed to figure a place to change later, but i had a rough plan of trying a shower and change place ive used when riding to work sometimes.
After an hour i thought id have a look at the road up to mount Macedon as i plan on riding up it soon and i was passing. At the top i needed the ladies and even though a few people where around they where way to busy to look at me too closely. It was only 12 degrees C up there, but I sort of liked the cold air on my legs. I took a couple of photos which are only of me despite there actually being other people around.
At this point i knew I would have to go into Melbourne and as i had 150kms in the tank for a 68km drive i wouldn’t need petrol before i became boy again.
Into the city centre, parked up collected my things and headed across the carpark and up the stairs to the city centre. Noting the cubicles with showers where being cleaned i thought a short walk around the block would be fine and it sure was!
But on closer checking of the cubicles i saw to my horror they where out of order…….. went back to my car and had a think. Only 50kms of fuel left now so had to be close or i’d need to get fuel. Wouldn’t have been a problem i guess. Thankfully the beach has loads of change places with showers (cold ones, brrrgh!) So after going back up into the lobby to pay my parking , i drove as economically as possible to the beach. The showers and changing rooms are a short walk from the carpark, but it was nice to find my feminine rhythm walking along the path. I chose the women’s and dissolved into boy again. No one around.
I have 2 days away again next month, yippee!